The way in

How can we still bear ourselves? How can we walk in the sunshine with a fake smile pretending nothing has happened. How can we go on with so much to carry, with so many buried secrets? How can we wash blood with fake tears?
This will go on forever and unlike stories, nobody will learn out of it. No one will remember. We'll keep repeating the same mistakes over and over and we'll only see it when it's done.
Freedom seems a price too big to pay. There's no freedom in the outside world and we only have one way to be free. It's inside. It's in our thoughts. I'm not saying anything new for any of you. I won't make a difference by reminding it to you. You'll read this and then go and do the same again. And I might do the same too.
But I try to remember as much as I can that it's not outside where I can find answers, it's in. And the only role of the outside is to bring the focus back in. All we find has the only purpose of showing us the way back to ourselves. It's so clear now, but so hidden.
I cried for people I never met. I cried for their, if you forgive me, childish dreams. I cried because I have the same dream and now more than ever I see it's never going to happen. World peace? I wish.
Call me a hippie, call me a fool, call me anything you want, it won't touch me. Rarely, I'm free in my thoughts, and although I keep it to myself, it shows.
I believe in life. I believe in diversity. I believe in love. I believe in people. I believe that all of us have a human side. I believe we're all good in our way. Even if it lies there inside and never comes out, I believe in it. Although I wish I could scream and ask why, it's been done before. We can find answers, but they won't heal. We can find truth, but it's not going to make anything better.
In the end, what I wanted to say is the only thing we can find that helps is strength. We need to find the strength to keep going, to keep our serenity, to keep our hearts away from our heads. We need to believe in our own freedom of mind and pursue it. There's no way back to Eden but the one inside. Our quest won't end.
The only prize we will win is the capacity to bring peace to our soul more often. And for that, there's no price to pay.